February 2010
33 posts
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i've made a huge tiny mistake.
I’m having one of those stress breakdowns wherein I channel all of my discomfited feelings into closet-cleaning. If I don’t do this now, I will be on Hoarders in 20 years, living in a ranch-style home replete with old sweaters and decaying cat bodies. NO! I will not let this happen to me!
And now I need to hyperventilate and cry.
Middle Cyclone - Neko Case
“Can’t...
January 2010
20 posts
airport people watching vol. 2
i propose a new bumper sticker slogan:
“wisconsin is for douches”
on the bright side, if i’m ever worried that i’m not good at anything, i can remind myself of how good i am at keeping everyone at arm’s length.
oh shit.
with love and squalor.
there are two phone conversations going on in the bedroom next to this one, and it makes my usual habit of eavesdropping particularly difficult. you try following two disparate narrative threads and see how it goes for you. i suppose the life lesson in all of this is ‘stop listening to other people’s conversations’, but if i did that, reader, i’d just be too bored for...
vacation.
bored, lonely, but enjoying california’s sparse sunshine.
airport people watching vol. 1
I keep seeing boys that look like a cross between a member of Vampire Weekend and the smarmy fellow I had a crush on when I was 17. It’s very WANT/DO NOT WANT, if you catch my drift.
identification.
I want to be a Keats, but I think I’m a Proust.
At least I’m not a Lord Byron.
i don’t like being bad at things, and i don’t like being indifferent.
but it’s hard to change your habits.
“In his narrow, malicious way, Pat Robertson is making a First Commandment...”
– Miller on the theology of suffering. (via newsweek)
“This love was like an endless wringing of hands”
– vladimir nabokov, from “pale fire”
songs for the week.
1. seaweed song - passion pit “nobody knows you the way you know you, but i think i do”
2. work it - missy elliott “see them Belvedere play tricks on ya” (don’t judge me.)
3. i think ur a contra - vampire weekend “i think you’re a contra. i think that you lie.”
4. you make loving fun - fleetwood mac “and i don’t have to tell you, but...
dreams.
only i would have a dream that prominently featured vintage lighters.
“In ancient societies before writing even, a lot of information was passed down...”
– Daniel Tammet, Conversations on Creativity (via sometimesagreatnotion)
(I agree with this so much - I wrote a paper on this sort of topic, that there are stories and themes that reoccur in human existence because they strike chords in us that satisfy…something… and i don’t think...
“No one denies to Keats love of the world;
Remember his deliberate happiness”
- W.B. Yeats “Ego Dominus Tuus”
pale fire.
I get to invest the next semester in studying Vladimir Nabokov’s “Pale Fire” as a research assistant for one of the best English professors at this institution. This novel is delicious, self-reflective prose driven by a character so obtuse and unaware that I can’t even believe it.
in other words, i’m really excited.
twelve songs i loved in 2009:
1. maps - the yeah yeah yeahs (i didn’t like the yyy’s til this year, silly me.)
2. la familia - mirah (lots of longing. everyone needs a good song to yearn to.)
3. people gotta lot of nerve - neko case (i’m a man, man, man, maneater.)
4. stevie nix/your little hoodrat friend - the hold steady (these songs saved my summer.)
5. anthems for a...
